the phone won't ring tonight,

forget about saviors-

forget about it ringing,

its 6 AM. just relent

& pitch a tent inside

your head. 

walk home if you have to,

the weather is another Intoxication.

better than the mind sludge-

of dust motes,

and falling leaves,

fryer smells,

spilling whiskey on the kitchen table,

looking at the clock A hundred times,

throwing a glass out the window-

to hear it Crack!-,

pushing people away,

desiring the girl playing pool,

thinking about Everything better,

thinking about past friends,

wishing-which is painful-,

listening to a myriad drone.

pass out.

pass out.

pass out,

afraid & worried-

about the hold on tomorrow,

and then more afraid-

of the future After tomorrow.

i'm spitting too much in the sink-

its got some blood,

time to wipe away the cold tears from my eyes,

every beautiful woman i've ever met,

they sit on top of me smiling &

Naked. every hour is a wake up,

from this dream.

there should just be a woman in my bed

but the phone

won't ring tonight-

so forget about it, turn it off and you'll win

the phone won't ring

pass out, naked & sweat-

give it up

close your eyes,

let the glow of the phone

dim out, like sleepy eyes-

hear a bird-forget about the nightmares

there is no control

pass the hope & the bottle

im finished.