after a drunk

dear,

please excuse my behavior. 

hard ventures

blood

laughter

i was a mess I know, but-

We couldn't help but rob the taco shop,

or drive around with a requiem

for our past selves

past the bells

dead trees

swinging door,

A floor huddled four

smoking.

outside the coolness

breaks the dizzy spell

of bad air,

it feels like there's something to apologize for,

A bright morning

without birds

its like waking up from being dead.

what was that

was it me?

I know I'm wasted when I can't see green.

cradled self,

I'm apologizing over and over to my 

eyes,

my feet

my head

my stomach

my love

my despair

A best friends whisper

valiant

sad

tea-cups 

in my wavering hand

how the shrouded moon

knows

dear,

your smile was a weapon

even if you didn't know

your laughter daggers in the night

your coat a covering from my stare

relent

take care.